A Gray Veil: Eclipse, Total, Lunar

A Gray Veil: Eclipse, Total,

Lunar

 

I have been able to hear a shadow,

And even perceived by ear

The passage of a cloud across

The sun . . .

 

                                Mary Joe Salter

                                Alternating Currents

 

Behind. And the pines rising

High and higher still

Up the incline to the only clearing

 

Descending into the goose pond.

The moon is in

Eclipse.  She is falling while

 

A gray veil is being drawn

Across her face, the way

A drape is drawn across the dead, soft

 

Hovering, almost not touching.  

What's beneath it gone.

Or the appearance of gone.

But not 

Some magician’s trick.  Simply

Shadow and the agreement

 

Among all the bodies that come

Between her and the full

Simplicity of her face. 

 

It will be another hour of her

Muted illumination.  The drawn

Cloth is being

 

Drawn yet.  Before it’s done

She’ll have set

Below the tree line,

 

Below the mountain

Shy if you’d like, coy if you’d

Rather, the cantilevered

 

Agreement already calibrated,

Anciently, when she was

Grit in the mouth of this galaxy

 

Nacre and ooze moving

Like sibling tongues: the hurt

Of wound and beauty

 

Shaped and continuously

Lathed: gouged, parted,

Skewed, and polished.

 

 

Abeyance, October

 

Abeyance, October  

After 'Light Wash' 1969

 

                          God tempers the wind 

                          to the shorn lamb.

  

Folding sheets at 3 am

I am reminded of how the

Wind would lift her clean

Wet linens pinned with two 

 

Pins on each end and one for good

Measure near the center.

To be sure of their security

She would throw them over

 

The line so the rope,

In the time it took the sheets

To dry from morning

Toward night, would insist

 

The midsection of itself

And assert its mark, a mark

She might use as her dividing/

Divining line when the bed

 

Got made, a demarcation,

her latitudinal parallel, a 1^st night 

bride, then night upon night

A first-night bride. 

 

I like the loud sound

Of wind in

Sheets and sails.  To me,

It meant the purpose

 

Of pinning was simply that:

A purpose.  But a purpose worth

Berthing.  Five pins, eight,

Ten, limited only by the number

 

 Of overall pins and loads

And the length of the clothes-

Line he'd strung for her. 

Battened, it didn’t matter, 

 

If a fierce enough wind found  

Its way up and into the cup 

Of that fitted

Sheet, something eventually

Was going

to come 

undone. But before it

 

Did, she pinned.  She pinned

And she pinned.  She slipped extra

Pins between her teeth, sucked

At the cedar and the spring,

 

The weathering and seasons of them.

Parallel lines of sheets, 

six or eight deep.  Big family.  

Three babies.  One scrub tub.

I see her between each blowing sheet  

Her blowing hair stands, trying

to come undone, thrust back

Under the bandana.  It was red,

 

That bandana.  It and she were

In between these lifting/

Receding waves of wet effectively

Wrung clean. It was her, a moving feast, 

Jupiter's Io between the lines, or a

Sentry from one post to the other

Groping for the pole to raise

The wet heft from the drag

 

And like a joust, walk it, trot it

Run it into the center of its

Crotch to gather it, lift it,

From the ground, gift it 

Its only hint, stiff pins yes,

Those stiff, stiff pins, pinched

Against the whiff and whisper 

Of wind

On the Eve of...

 

On the Eve of…

Photography is by definition mute.

C. D. Wright

Talking Pictures

It almost slipped by

without my inquiry: today,

being of sound mind

& almost sound memory,

(forget the body) I watched  

myself write September

21st and said isn’t it

the equinox soon?  The

autumnal equinox?  (saying

that word out loud: 

autumnal

in one press of breath

has some awed finality

to it, but the kind

of finality that hasn’t

arrived yet, know

what I mean?  Breathe

it and you’ll see) Because

the vernal equinox, 

back against the pelvis

of March, was and often

falls in on the 20th.  

And solstice summer:

the 20th.  So it would,

like water that seeks

its own level, be that winter

will balance the wind

of its own beginning

(and by beginning I mean

on paper, calendars, those

neat grids and numerals

and phases of moons

Jewish holidays and holy

days of obligation if

you’re marked by such

remembrances.)  It happens

it’s a full moon 

just now.  Earlier, 

around 3 a.m.,

there was a rainbow 

ring around the face

of her, and I’d wanted

to get a photo—

but I stopped

at the glass and just

watched the light

cast back in the metal

birdbath.  Lately, 

which means through

the spring and summer,

a young and hungry

black bear has been

ravaging our birdfeeders.  

And we keep forgetting

to take them to

the shed. Still, I count

myself fortunate 

that I was able to 

watch the bear late

last spring sit 

on his haunch 

and as contentedly

as any sentient,

as easy as springs 

and lubricated gears, 

open and close

the little windows 

meant for songbirds:

chickadees, nuthatches,

finches…

I don’t know where

the bear has got to

through the last

two seasons.  He’s

maybe watching me

through the leaves

deepening need

to release their green.

There’s in no way

discrete, piles of seeded

scat, studded 

with all that’s passed

through the unholy

or holy depending on

your bent, ropy colon.

I’ve got this full moon

telling me it’s going

to rain soon – at least

somewhere up in the air –

verga maybe, water

that will never fall

all the way, or the cool

beginnings of winter.  Shhhh.

I know.  I know.  

There’s one day left

of summer.  Picture it:

I thought it was lost

forever and had gone

on (to where is yours,

or anyone’s guess or 

conjecture) but it turns

out I’ve got one last day.

And a rainbow around

the full harvest moon – what

are they named?  

moon bows?  Moon 

rings?  There’s science

to it – ice 

crystals and prisms

and thin cirrus clouds,

the conditions

pristine and well timed

and not at all

random or happened

on by chance.  I wanted

the photo.  I really did.

But I wanted more

to know I’d be alone

long enough and outside

the reach of the free

moving bear who is 

the real reason I stay

inside, he who blesses

me with his squat

knee and posture

and keeps his claws

inside the tiny seed-

houses of birds and licks

his paws contentedly,

lick, lick, lick, his tongue

a blue cloud over 

his black moon maw,

falling in then coming up

falling in, and falling

in and coming up

until it’s all quite empty

or he’s had his fill,

whichever comes first

on this day the last day

of summer for anyone

who’s watching such 

moons that are full

and waning and taking

their ease between

trees and least cirrus’s 

now far-drifted east

and eased free 

as the breeze, 

as any breeze,

decrees.

After Nineteen Years

 

 

After Nineteen Years

  

Our odometer begins to shine

like an emerald, proclaiming

we’ve been traveling all our lives.

 

                                           D. Nurske

                                           Riding West with Laura

 

 

This year the gifts will be

a clean house top to bottom

the laundry picked up

from the bathroom floor

 

a lit candle for the souls

who go and who have gone on

living or dead

without us.  And of all the small

 

things they’ve left behind,

their breathing is what I miss

most of all, how it was done

right beside us, living

 

a life.  I think or I’d like

to think (because I have

my doubts about some)

they’d be pleased at what

 

we’ve become, how we’ve

kept up on

the house and kept the kids

for the most part

 

happy as we could

make them.  We spared

the rod.  I’m glad.  I never

thought it could

 

happen.  I’m happy

it did. I’m happy it still

does.  And too, all those small repairs

along our way and if not

 

repairs, replacements: a new

fridge, roof, floor.  And those

tiles caught in their own pause

in a box, stacked 

 

and waiting to be flattened

in a pattern we don’t mind

looking at as we sit or stand

or gaze off into if the window

 

is dark.  Today, I sopped up

the trapped water under

the heat exchanger in the dryer.

Happy Anniversaries are these,

 

right?  My tiny hands on

confidence duty, assured

and humble enough to rub

or crush whatever needs to be

 

rubbed or crushed.  Taken in

or taken out. Like laundry,

I suppose.  Those whites,

the ones tumbling in the main-

 

tained dryer.  Remember when

I washed the black ink pen

in them, and now everything has

a particular age of grey

 

I don’t think they talked about

in those books, though I can’t be

sure.  Now, when they come out

of the dryer, they’ll show

 

there’s still some use in something

a little past its prime.  They can

lead a private life of wiping up

after a wash.  Clean.  Fresh. Tide

 

coming in, going out.  It might not

seem so, but everything I do,

even this, is with you.  Shouldered

and leveled, solo or

 

with the warmth of your body

close to mine.  Darkness or day.

Tumbled or just stilling, warm

and clean against our skins.

Some Accumulated Treasures of a Life

 

Some Accumulated Treasures of a Life

 

the children we were

              are omnipresent

 

I’m sorry to tell you but you can’t hear

the ocean in a clamshell, at least

not the clamshells I’ve known, dull,

flat, enough to only give tiny details of

news about what world's stuck inside:

a sealed sea alive in a belly, a neck,

and rough bearded fibers we’d take

off after we steamed them in

their own very homes.  On the outside,

the whole thing looks like the lock

you want to break, and the inside,

the use you need of it:

 

chef?     sumptuous in wine and linguine

              all steam, initially

 

digger? money, potentially, beneath  

each hole, theirs, yours, peck after peck        

me?       spooning open those airholes

              my only bounty saltwater

 

They were always so small by the time

I got to them, the shells I grew up with:

some flat and dull, some mother-

of pearl, some opalescent: mussels, clams,

scallops.  Halfs of themselves.  Ravished.

Nothing like the conchs, the whelks,

the angel wings from the Gulf.  A nautilus?  Never. 

Unless you count 

the unreachable shelf, bounty brought

back after ages away.  I always dug alone.

 

Still, there were others, of course.  Small

periwinkles stuck under the living bladdewrack

sucking on the rocks, the water, the microscopic

Once, a whole sea snail shell, empty, I held

up to my ear and had to push it almost

inside entirely.  Shh.

I waited for the news of her world.  Instead,

the gulls rioted in mock murmuration, ravenous

for the lobster boat going by, the guy

on the stern tossing off old bait. 

In the wheelhouse, my father throttled and laid

off the throttle, and, spying me

onshore, a spec-like grit under the lip

of flesh, spit and rubbed his teeth

with his tongue.  I saw a ring

of gold around his boat but the birds

soon took to moving on to their own

wandering.  I was so close I could’ve

swum up to him and then aboard,

wet and entirely penetrated

with the cold ocean.  I wanted to,

 

some of me, wanted to unpocket

all the shells, empty as they were, back

to bottom, back to being moved

this way, that way by the tide.  Flood or ebb.

It didn’t matter.  What mattered was

they’d all be crushed, being held

or smashed against the shore like that,

or the boat bottom, or the trap

of the dragging gear…whatever’s underneath,

whatever we can’t see or breathe in,

whatever we can’t imagine another creature

even needing, clams, scallops, whore’s

eggs, or maybe that naked crab

I saw just before the boat came in,

too big for all that was previous of it,

too small for what it currently was:

hear it? opportunity knocking, ears

hands reaching into the steam,

recklessly selecting.

An Offering for Goslings

An Offering for Goslings

Consider their plight in the sky

    and the height of the night

        descending and how right

now at this quiet idyl

    it might be enough like this

        to pry you out

of your winter: they cry from

    the cells of themselves, send

        their sound out into that scrim

of cloud and then fly right

    through their somehow guided

        and requite call.  What is

it like to glide into your own

    calling?  Can you (have you ever

        wondered?) feel it in 

your scalp first your cheeks then

    and deeper beneath the skin

        into the mantle

where it all began?  And then

    fly on and on and on into it

        while the multiplying are still

and quiet beneath the skull,

        spiraling into the yolk and 

            albumen and finally (some bit

of them) calcified: the delicate

    wet and then wind-dried

        shellac-like shell incubated

in the tall grasses.  And hearing with-

    in them all those other calls: mother-

        hums maybe, moved into inside

and still ever into the goose-

    children who will, once raised and having out-

        witted fox and ermine and otter-

call out in the same way

    through the same but intimately

        plied, year-long wide sky.  Alive.    

   

bending

 

Bending 

 

 

That time you rose with bubbles

in your blood but didn’t know it

didn’t feel the honest

to goodness pressure

you were under and really who

can in the beginning it doesn’t change

much initially. I want to ask

how fast do you have

to draw up from the bottom to have

gas make the improper advances

like touching a tittie lightly almost

unnoticed until something goes pop



and you come to in a steel can

doors screwed shut and the hiss

(is there a hiss I imagine there’s a hiss)

of sweet air on damage control inhale

inhale let every lungful saturate

and send out battalions to prey

on the renegades and make them

docile as a rabid dog just shot but not

gone yet not gone mad but just

resting before the rage has fled



and what's promised is relief sweet

relief at being so loved in such a way

as to be delivered finally and forever

from it all.



When they open the chamber door

they’ll tell you the man you almost

murdered your best friend and fellow

will live and you don't know

what to say to that only now you

stumble, bum a smoke or try to

and let the men who saved you

from going under for real

and for good say naw, not just yet

pal, just keep breathing, in

and out, easy, no need speeding

just getting to the top slow

as she goes. There's air. Don't panic.